i give up

I just can't stand it anymore. it is just nauseatingly disgusting how many times i get knocked out when i get my money in good against a complete retarded ass piece of shit, and get beaten down, like this...

Full Tilt Poker Game #5904770667: Satellite to $15K Guarantee (44943093), Table 1 - 120/240 - No Limit Hold'em - 13:19:41 ET - 2008/04/04
Seat 1: bushfox (2,645)
Seat 5: bbart1111 (4,165)
Seat 6: hamish1984 (3,815)
Seat 9: jl131 (2,875)
jl131 posts the small blind of 120
bushfox posts the big blind of 240
The button is in seat #6
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to jl131 [Qh As]
bbart1111 folds
hamish1984 folds
jl131 raises to 720
bushfox has 15 seconds left to act
bushfox raises to 2,645, and is all in
jl131 calls 1,925
bushfox shows [Ad 4s]
jl131 shows [Qh As]
*** FLOP *** [5d 3c 9h]
*** TURN *** [5d 3c 9h] [6s]
*** RIVER *** [5d 3c 9h 6s] [4d]
bushfox shows a pair of Fours
jl131 shows Ace Queen high
bushfox wins the pot (5,290) with a pair of Fours
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot 5,290 | Rake 0
Board: [5d 3c 9h 6s 4d]
Seat 1: bushfox (big blind) showed [Ad 4s] and won (5,290) with a pair of Fours
Seat 5: bbart1111 didn't bet (folded)
Seat 6: hamish1984 (button) didn't bet (folded)
Seat 9: jl131 (small blind) showed [Qh As] and lost with Ace Queen high

i mean come on, A4??????? Like seriously, what the fuck did this reject think i could have that he could be beating? but again, i lose. AGAIN! to another peabrained idiotic loser that knows less about poker than i know about nuclear physics.

i am just so sick of it.

want more examples of how sick i run?

Full Tilt Poker Game #5905200723: $6 + $0.50 Sit & Go (Turbo) (44956398), Table 1 - 20/40 - Pot Limit Omaha Hi - 14:06:35 ET - 2008/04/04
Seat 1: CHICKEN4321 (1,470)
Seat 2: sparkycal (1,455)
Seat 3: Smackity Jack (474)
Seat 4: jl131 (1,230)
Seat 5: wartimebob (1,800)
Seat 6: specialagentdb (2,571)
wartimebob posts the small blind of 20
specialagentdb posts the big blind of 40
The button is in seat #4
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to jl131 [6d 8d Qh Kd]
CHICKEN4321 raises to 80
sparkycal calls 80
Smackity Jack folds
jl131 calls 80
wartimebob folds
specialagentdb calls 40
*** FLOP *** [8h Ac Kh]
specialagentdb checks
CHICKEN4321 bets 80
sparkycal calls 80
jl131 raises to 300
specialagentdb folds
CHICKEN4321 raises to 520
sparkycal folds
jl131 calls 220
*** TURN *** [8h Ac Kh] [4s]
CHICKEN4321 bets 760
jl131 has 15 seconds left to act
jl131 folds
Uncalled bet of 760 returned to CHICKEN4321
CHICKEN4321 shows [Ts Ad Js As] three of a kind, Aces
CHICKEN4321 wins the pot (1,460)

gotta flop 2 pair against top set, right?

then this...

Full Tilt Poker Game #5905238427: $6 + $0.50 Sit & Go (Turbo) (44956398), Table 1 - 25/50 - Pot Limit Omaha Hi - 14:10:29 ET - 2008/04/04
Seat 1: CHICKEN4321 (2,200)
Seat 2: sparkycal (1,155)
Seat 3: Smackity Jack (724)
Seat 4: jl131 (700)
Seat 5: wartimebob (1,690)
Seat 6: specialagentdb (2,531)
jl131 posts the small blind of 25
wartimebob posts the big blind of 50
The button is in seat #3
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to jl131 [9c 9s 4h Qh]
specialagentdb folds
CHICKEN4321 folds
sparkycal folds
Smackity Jack has 15 seconds left to act
Smackity Jack folds
jl131 calls 25
wartimebob raises to 150
jl131 calls 100
*** FLOP *** [4d Kh Qc]
jl131 checks
wartimebob bets 300
jl131 raises to 550, and is all in
wartimebob calls 250
jl131 shows [9c 9s 4h Qh]
wartimebob shows [Ac Tc Kc 8h]
*** TURN *** [4d Kh Qc] [Jc]
*** RIVER *** [4d Kh Qc Jc] [3s]
jl131 shows two pair, Queens and Fours
wartimebob shows a straight, Ace high
wartimebob wins the pot (1,400) with a straight, Ace high
jl131 stands up and launches his monitor off the top of a seven-story building